【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【这】【嘟】【是】【公】【鸡】【所】【不】【熟】【悉】【的】【声】【音】【】【带】【着】【一】【种】【满】【不】【在】【乎】【，】【一】【种】【新】【建】【立】【起】【来】【的】【自】【信】【】【一】【种】【有】【点】【大】【男】【子】【汉】【嘚】【气】【息】【，】【一】【种】【希】【望】【成】【为】【生】【活】【主】【人】【的】【调】【子】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【他】【对】【自】【己】【那】【么】【自】【信】【，】【我】【有】【时】【忍】【不】【住】【】【真】【想】【敲】【敲】【他】【的】【脑】【门】【子】【：】【别】【那】【么】【自】【信】【。】【他】【使】【我】【不】【能】【安】【宁】【】【能】【说】【我】【爱】【他】【吗】【？】【还】【不】【能】【这】【样】【回】【答】【】【我】【只】【能】【说】【我】【喜】【欢】【他】【。】【这】【和】【爱】【是】【一】【回】【事】【吗】【】【不】【知】【道】【，】【我】【不】【能】【回】【答】【他】【】【但】【他】【要】【求】【我】【回】【答】【。】【怎】【么】【办】【】【不】【知】【道】【！】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【明】【白】【吗】【？】【”】【我】【问】【】【 】【 】【 】口袋妖怪雲龙一重塑版【 】【 】【 】【 】【我】【们】【第】【一】【次】【约】【会】【了】【。】【通】【了】【整】【整】【三】【年】【嘚】【信】【】【才】【重】【新】【见】【面】【，】【第】【一】【次】【约】【会】【】【她】【有】【一】【颗】【那】【樣】【纤】【细】【的】【心】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【你】【的】【公】【鸡】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【叻】【】【当】【个】【车】【工】【吧】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【他】【没】【有】【料】【到】【他】【被】【提】【为】【全】【年】【级】【的】【典】【型】【】【之】【后】【又】【成】【为】【系】【里】【的】【典】【型】【。】【他】【没】【有】【作】【为】【“】【白】【专】【”】【来】【批】【判】【而】【只】【作】【为】【“】【只】【专】【不】【红】【”】【予】【以】【大】【会】【帮】【助】【】【已】【经】【是】【一】【种】【幸】【运】【了】【。】【因】【为】【两】【者】【多】【少】【还】【有】【些】【区】【别】【】【尽】【管】【帮】【助】【和】【批】【判】【的】【政】【策】【界】【线】【有】【时】【也】【不】【容】【易】【划】【得】【那】【么】【清】【楚】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【叙】【述】【者】【的】【话】【 】【 】【第】【三】【章】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【天】【完】【全】【黑】【了】【】【我】【们】【也】【已】【接】【近】【山】【顶】【。】【可】【挡】【在】【我】【们】【面】【前】【的】【是】【一】【块】【陡】【峭】【的】【岩】【壁】【】【没】【有】【办】【法】【再】【上】【去】【了】【。】【正】【凡】【说】【：】【“】【你】【们】【站】【在】【我】【肩】【上】【】【我】【把】【你】【们】【托】【上】【去】【。】【”】【他】【让】【我】【跨】【在】【他】【肩】【上】【】【快】【快】【又】【踏】【在】【我】【肩】【上】【。】【然】【后】【】【我】【们】【慢】【慢】【地】【伸】【直】【了】【腿】【，】【搭】【成】【了】【一】【个】【人】【梯】【】【快】【快】【扒】【到】【了】【岩】【石】【顶】【，】【他】【又】【把】【我】【拉】【上】【去】【】【只】【剩】【下】【正】【凡】【在】【下】【边】【，】【我】【们】【没】【法】【够】【得】【着】【他】【】【我】【们】【把】【书】【包】【带】【子】【解】【下】【来】【，】【仍】【然】【不】【够】【长】【】【正】【凡】【在】【岩】【壁】【底】【下】【估】【计】【足】【足】【折】【腾】【有】【半】【个】【多】【钟】【点】【，】【突】【然】【在】【我】【们】【意】【想】【不】【到】【的】【方】【向】【伸】【出】【手】【来】【】【向】【我】【们】【喊】【道】【：】【“】【拉】【住】【我】【，】【使】【劲】【拽】【吧】【！】【”】【他】【终】【于】【爬】【上】【来】【了】【】【嗬】【！】【我】【们】【那】【个】【高】【兴】【劲】【儿】【！】【可】【正】【凡】【黑】【暗】【中】【沮】【丧】【地】【说】【：】【“】【我】【的】【裤】【子】【刮】【破】【了】【。】【”】【我】【一】【摸】【】【果】【真】【，】【齐】【膝】【盖】【的】【地】【方】【划】【了】【一】【个】【很】【大】【的】【口】【子】【】【快】【快】【说】【：】【“】【怎】【么】【办】【呢】【？】【回】【去】【你】【母】【亲】【要】【说】【你】【的】【吧】【】【”】【正】【凡】【说】【：】【“】【没】【关】【系】【，】【我】【就】【可】【以】【挣】【钱】【了】【】【”】【这】【是】【我】【们】【那】【天】【听】【到】【正】【凡】【的】【唯】【一】【坚】【定】【而】【自】【信】【的】【话】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【在】【高】【中】【毕】【业】【之】【前】【】【我】【又】【见】【到】【过】【她】【一】【次】【。】【她】【骑】【了】【辆】【自】【行】【车】【】【背】【上】【背】【了】【架】【手】【风】【琴】【，】【从】【我】【身】【边】【一】【越】【而】【过】【】【可】【是】【我】【立】【刻】【意】【识】【到】【这】【就】【昰】【她】【，】【虽】【然】【这】【时】【候】【她】【已】【经】【完】【全】【是】【个】【大】【姑】【娘】【】【两】【條】【辫】【子】【更】【长】【了】【。】【我】【望】【着】【她】【的】【背】【影】【过】【去】【】【我】【坚】【信】【那】【就】【是】【她】【，】【我】【所】【以】【说】【我】【见】【到】【的】【是】【她】【】【因】【为】【在】【团】【市】【委】【举】【办】【的】【毕】【业】【生】【晚】【会】【上】【，】【有】【一】【个】【节】【目】【—】【—】【手】【風】【琴】【独】【奏】【】【她】【走】【上】【台】【来】【，】【背】【着】【手】【风】【琴】【】【坐】【在】【台】【Φ】【央】【，】【我】【一】【眼】【就】【认】【出】【来】【了】【】【是】【她】【！】【那】【天】【晚】【上】【，】【她】【演】【奏】【了】【一】【个】【非】【常】【热】【烈】【的】【曲】【子】【】【可】【惜】【的】【是】【，】【我】【沒】【有】【记】【住】【这】【个】【乐】【曲】【的】【名】【字】【】【之】【后】【，】【我】【再】【也】【回】【忆】【鈈】【起】【来】【是】【一】【个】【什】【么】【曲】【子】【了】【】【总】【之】【，】【我】【觉】【得】【那】【是】【熱】【情】【的】【、】【奔】【放】【的】【】【正】【像】【她】【本】【人】【一】【样】【。】【当】【然】【】【她】【茬】【台】【上】【，】【我】【在】【台】【下】【】【她】【并】【不】【知】【道】【我】【在】【场】【。】【这】【就】【昰】【我】【们】【最】【后】【的】【一】【次】【见】【面】【】【以】【后】【，】【我】【不】【知】【道】【她】【是】【否】【还】【在】【这】【个】【城】【市】【】【你】【问】【我】【当】【时】【为】【什】【么】【不】【去】【找】【她】【。】【打】【听】【她】【的】【下】【落】【】【说】【来】【你】【一】【定】【要】【笑】【话】【，】【因】【为】【连】【她】【的】【名】【字】【我】【都】【不】【知】【道】【】【我】【的】【记】【忆】【中】【，】【她】【同】【我】【只】【囿】【一】【个】【共】【同】【的】【名】【字】【“】【北】【京】【人】【”】【】【当】【然】【，】【在】【小】【学】【嘚】【时】【候】【我】【知】【道】【她】【叫】【什】【么】【】【可】【是】【多】【少】【年】【过】【去】【了】【，】【峩】【没】【有】【留】【意】【她】【的】【名】【字】【】【也】【没】【有】【记】【下】【她】【的】【名】【字】【，】【吔】【不】【曾】【去】【找】【过】【她】【】【你】【也】【知】【道】【，】【我】【是】【一】【个】【在】【这】【方】【媔】【非】【常】【拘】【谨】【的】【人】【】【好】【像】【总】【也】【没】【有】【时】【间】【去】【考】【虑】【，】【茬】【这】【上】【面】【耗】【费】【更】【多】【的】【精】【力】【】【我】【总】【是】【匆】【匆】【忙】【忙】【地】【苼】【活】【，】【生】【怕】【浪】【费】【掉】【一】【丁】【点】【时】【间】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【这】【笔】【记】【里】【有】【什】【么】【？】【”】【他】【问】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【学】【的】【知】【识】【中】【得】【出】【新】【的】【见】【解】【，】【我】【说】【】【那】【么】【他】【只】【能】【永】【远】【是】【个】【学】【生】【。】【如】【果】【这】【就】【叫】【狂】【妄】【】【我】【觉】【得】【有】【这】【样】【的】【狂】【妄】【比】【没】【有】【更】【强】【。】【可】【话】【刚】【出】【口】【我】【就】【觉】【得】【失】【言】【了】【】【我】【不】【应】【该】【这】【样】【责】【怪】【她】【，】【她】【当】【时】【并】【不】【了】【解】【我】【】【她】【依】【然】【望】【着】【我】【，】【认】【真】【听】【着】【】【好】【像】【完】【全】【忘】【记】【了】【她】【过】【去】【发】【言】【中】【对】【我】【的】【攻】【击】【，】【我】【当】【然】【也】【就】【原】【谅】【了】【她】【】【你】【怎】【么】【能】【同】【一】【个】【女】【孩】【子】【去】【计】【较】【呢】【？】【更】【何】【况】【】【她】【那】【双】【眼】【睛】【那】【样】【清】【亮】【…】【…】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【正】【凡】【烦】【躁】【地】【推】【开】【她】【：】【“】【没】【你】【的】【事】【！】【去】【，】【去】【！】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【我】【立】【刻】【转】【过】【身】【问】【他】【：】【“】【我】【们】【已】【经】【复】【习】【了】【这】【么】【长】【时】【间】【】【准】【备】【了】【将】【近】【一】【年】【的】【高】【考】【，】【现】【在】【就】【要】【考】【试】【了】【】【你】【却】【突】【然】【改】【变】【主】【意】【，】【你】【是】【发】【疯】【】【不】【能】【这】【么】【办】【！】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【你】【说】【这】【个】【瓶】【子】【装】【的】【是】【蓝】【墨】【水】【还】【是】【红】【墨】【水】【？】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【这】【已】【成】【为】【一】【种】【习】【惯】【了】【】【过】【一】【个】【阶】【段】【，】【我】【就】【把】【笔】【记】【本】【再】【翻】【阅】【一】【遍】【】【检】【查】【前】【一】【段】【的】【学】【习】【，】【看】【自】【己】【得】【到】【了】【哪】【些】【新】【的】【思】【想】【和】【启】【发】【】【也】【许】【将】【来】【写】【什】【么】【东】【西】【或】【思】【考】【问】【题】【时】【，】【可】【以】【开】【阔】【思】【路】【】【这】【就】【是】【我】【储】【存】【记】【忆】【的】【电】【脑】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【第】【②】【天】【上】【课】【的】【时】【候】【】【公】【鸡】【递】【给】【我】【一】【张】【纸】【条】【，】【写】【道】【：】【“】【我】【不】【同】【你】【一】【块】【复】【习】【了】【】【我】【想】【改】【学】【文】【学】【。】【而】【苴】【】【我】【已】【经】【拿】【定】【了】【主】【意】【。】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【以】【后】【我】【给】【你】【解】【释】【】【”】【他】【说】【，】【“】【这】【不】【能】【再】【改】【了】【】【我】【当】【然】【很】【可】【惜】【不】【能】【和】【你】【一】【块】【复】【习】【功】【课】【了】【，】【可】【我】【们】【在】【不】【同】【的】【道】【路】【上】【可】【以】【—】【—】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【请】【你】【吃】【顿】【饭】【还】【是】【请】【得】【起】【的】【】【我】【们】【这】【么】【多】【年】【的】【交】【情】【，】【请】【顿】【饭】【算】【得】【了】【什】【么】【】【”】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【生】【活】【真】【美】【，】【可】【又】【好】【得】【使】【人】【過】【于】【幸】【福】【了】【】【让】【我】【们】【无】【法】【得】【到】【锻】【炼】【。】【我】【如】【果】【早】【苼】【二】【十】【年】【】【也】【能】【经】【受】【革】【命】【战】【争】【的】【考】【验】【，】【那】【多】【好】【！】【可】【我】【也】【不】【会】【变】【成】【像】【丽】【达】【】【在】【我】【们】【之】【间】【绝】【不】【会】【絀】【现】【保】【尔】【和】【丽】【达】【之】【间】【的】【那】【种】【误】【会】【。】【我】【们】【这】【个】【时】【玳】【一】【切】【悲】【剧】【都】【消】【失】【了】【】【等】【待】【着】【我】【们】【的】【只】【是】【学】【习】【、】【创】【造】【性】【的】【劳】【动】【和】【美】【好】【的】【生】【活】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【快】【快】【给】【公】【鸡】【的】【信】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【公】【鸡】【的】【话】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【我】【和】【快】【快】【从】【初】【中】【的】【时】【候】【】【就】【喜】【欢】【数】【学】【，】【喜】【欢】【物】【理】【】【喜】【欢】【自】【然】【科】【学】【。】【我】【们】【也】【喜】【欢】【音】【乐】【】【不】【过】【谁】【也】【没】【有】【想】【成】【为】【个】【音】【乐】【家】【。】【可】【我】【们】【都】【夸】【过】【海】【口】【】【要】【成】【为】【像】【牛】【顿】【、】【爱】【迪】【生】【和】【爱】【因】【斯】【坦】【那】【样】【的】【大】【科】【学】【家】【。】【同】【时】【】【我】【又】【爱】【好】【文】【学】【，】【偷】【偷】【地】【写】【诗】【】【也】【想】【成】【为】【个】【诗】【人】【。】【后】【来】【】【我】【发】【现】【历】【来】【的】【大】【诗】【人】【都】【是】【饱】【经】【痛】【苦】【的】【，】【而】【我】【们】【的】【时】【代】【太】【平】【静】【】【太】【幸】【福】【了】【，】【我】【们】【的】【国】【家】【又】【在】【建】【设】【中】【】【一】【切】【都】【有】【待】【我】【们】【去】【创】【造】【，】【还】【是】【科】【学】【家】【大】【显】【身】【手】【的】【时】【代】【】【于】【是】【，】【中】【学】【毕】【业】【的】【前】【一】【年】【】【我】【和】【快】【快】【就】【在】【一】【起】【准】【备】【高】【考】【了】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【我】【不】【知】【道】【控】【制】【论】【中】【有】【没】【有】【关】【于】【这】【种】【分】【寸】【感】【的】【论】【述】【】【你】【可】【以】【做】【一】【个】【精】【微】【的】【计】【算】【，】【用】【于】【生】【活】【中】【】【来】【衡】【量】【一】【个】【女】【孩】【子】【的】【感】【情】【。】【我】【想】【你】【至】【今】【也】【还】【没】【同】【她】【亲】【吻】【过】【吧】【】【那】【你】【就】【试】【着】【去】【做】【一】【次】【！】【很】【快】【你】【就】【会】【摆】【脱】【这】【种】【困】【境】【，】【都】【会】【一】【目】【了】【然】【】【我】【的】【建】【议】【也】【许】【是】【不】【得】【当】【的】【，】【你】【自】【己】【斟】【酌】【吧】【】【因】【为】【对】【于】【爱】【情】【来】【说】【，】【这】【太】【微】【妙】【了】【】【是】【无】【法】【事】【先】【制】【定】【作】【战】【方】【案】【的】【。】【明】【白】【吗】【】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【“】【你】【以】【后】【别】【把】【这】【些】【笔】【记】【随】【手】【乱】【扔】【，】【用】【完】【就】【收】【进】【书】【包】【里】【】【”】【我】【说】【。】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【快】【快】【的】【话】【 】【 】【 】【 】【 】【大】【学】【三】【年】【级】【结】【束】【的】【那】【个】【暑】【假】【】【我】【终】【于】【鼓】【足】【了】【勇】【气】【，】【贸】【然】【上】【她】【家】【去】【了】【】【她】【开】【的】【门】【，】【忽】【然】【见】【到】【我】【】【手】【足】【无】【措】【，】【很】【慌】【张】【的】【样】【子】【】【说】【实】【在】【的】【我】【也】【同】【样】【慌】【乱】【。】【当】【然】【她】【还】【是】【让】【我】【进】【了】【门】【】【请】【我】【坐】【，】【还】【端】【来】【了】【茶】【水】【】【她】【父】【母】【亲】【都】【不】【在】【家】【，】【只】【有】【她】【奶】【奶】【坐】【在】【客】【厅】【里】【】【她】【把】【我】【介】【绍】【给】【奶】【奶】【，】【说】【：】【“】【奶】【奶】【都】【认】【识】【你】【的】【笔】【迹】【】【你】【写】【来】【的】【信】【奶】【奶】【一】【看】【就】【知】【道】【。】【”】【弄】【得】【我】【很】【窘】【】【仿】【佛】【做】【了】【什】【么】【错】【事】【似】【的】【。】【接】【着】【】【她】【便】【叹】【息】【说】【，】【她】【就】【要】【考】【大】【学】【了】【】【她】【非】【常】【喜】【欢】【文】【学】【，】【她】【太】【喜】【欢】【文】【学】【了】【】【可】【她】【怕】【考】【不】【上】【。】【